The first time I saw your face
I was blown away without a trace
I felt so alone on a busy street
when you passed me by
I felt my feet melt away
Melt away

I pray to God I could meet
Someone like the boy I'd just seen
Someone that could stop me dead
Someone that could spin around in my head all day
In my head all day

Someday I will fly with you
Someday I will fly with you

That night I saw him again
It was the first time I touched his hand
He made me feel so warm
We talked all night 'til the dawn came our way
Til the dawn came our way

But the timing was all wrong
When I met the one I should've known
Instead I walked away leaving behind my destiny on that day
My destiny on that day

Someday I will fly with you
Someday I will fly with you

But I still see his face
In my mind it's the only place
And we will meet again
And I will touch your hand again on that day
Your hand again on that day

Monday, May 15, 2006

okay. first day of debriefs for midyears. argh. how i wish i could say i did well.

Eng Paper 1: 34/60
Chi Paper 1: 35.5/70
SS: 20/50

yeah sure i passed both paper ones. by a bit. the lowest i have ever gotten and even though many people got lower than me, i seriously feel like having a go at beheading myself. but then i can't be bothered. and besides, i think that if i commit suicide i will choose the most painless way out, eg, pills and not having to do something with a chopper. anyway lots of people failed social studies. but then, i need to get 80 marks for E Geog if i am to get 60 marks for combined humanities. i am supposed to be stronger in my humanities, so can you imagine what i will get for maths?it is enough to drive me nuts with anxiety.

don't you think some things are ironic:
1) i know how to say 'your mother is a prostitute' in Tagalog, Spanish and French but not in my supposed mother tongue.
2)yesterday was Mother's Day and my mother's mother got sent to the hospital instead.

seriously. she went for an operation, emergency i think. my mother smsed me just now during SS debrief, that my grandma 'had dementia while under operation'. what??? seriously my mother's grammar sucks but i get the meaning anyway. basically, my grandma has dementia... what is dementia? i just checked dictionary.com and it says dementia is


1)Deterioration of intellectual faculties, such as memory, concentration, and judgment, resulting from an organic disease or a disorder of the brain. It is sometimes accompanied by emotional disturbance and personality changes.
2)Madness; insanity.

huh. and apparently it will take six to nine months for the condition to worsen. perhaps it is tactless of me to say this, but then i doubt my mother will ever get a chance to read my blog; i am already used to demented people and therefore it doesn't irk me too much. we already have one at home, the loon leader. me.

i thought the world of you
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